I’m shaking so bad I can’t even hardly sit.
It’s hard to breathe.
I haven’t eaten, haven’t slept.
I can’t stop sobbing.
The sobbing and shaking is constant.
I thought I had A pie but turns out there were 4 and 20 blackbirds baked into it.
I hate myself.
I’m bleeding and it hurts.
But it’s what I deserve.
My body is giving in to giving up.
“And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I’m slipping away.”
“My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
And life before is only a memory.”
She left me.
“You held my down and screamed you wanted me to die…”
I’m sorry guys..I’m just fucking sorry.
My Matesprit left me brutally. She KEEPS texting me, apologizing asking if im okay then putting me down again. making me feel like this is ALL my fault.
And sadly i’m starting to fucking believe it is.
I’m HORRIBLY depressed and HOMESTLY have thought of self mutilation again. what the fuck is wrong with me that NO ONE wants to stay with me?
Am i that much of a Monster?…
I’m so sorry.
I dont know why i just am. i feel like everything is my fault.
So i’m sorry.