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I need something to be able to connect with.

And I really don’t have the money and i’m way too afraid to buying a $500 ball joint doll and dirty it or ruin it cause you like can’t touch them ever cause resin and stains and dirty and breakable.

I want something to be able to HUG and sleep with and be with 90% of the time that I won’t end up destroying or ruining. 

ugh. I just need SOMETHING.

I am SO lonely. you guys seriously don’t understand how depressed I am, it has never lasted this long or been this terribly crippling.


I can tell already that it’s gonna be one of those nights again.
Crying
Sleepless
Fighting to not cut myself open again
And more so having to get up and function in the morning

I just really don’t want to be alive.


You guys should talk to me and stuff.

Ask me questions
Tell me about yourself
Talk to me
Buy my hats
I’m just really lonely and shit like literally NO ONE is talking to me
I’m REALLY stressed out, to the MAX
so like…Take my mind off things?

Love me?



Everyone loses intrest in me. They leave and don’t even try to remember. I don’t have friends anymore, they all left.

I just don’t want to be forgotten anymore.

Is it too much to ask for people to stick around?

Am I really that bad..?

I try to be a good person…I’m strong for others when things fall apart.

And the next day It’s like i don’t even exist.

I miss them..So much it’s unbearable…

I’m just…Losing interest in everything…I don’t even want to get up out of bed. It’s gotten that bad. I have no reason, I don’t have friends so what’s the point?


OOPS. Well look at this piece of shittastic art.Yeahh my trial period is up I KNOW BUT FUCK IT I CAN STILL ART.So. All done with the mouse.Suck it.But no rlly I’m so upset today still it just…I just needed to draw sadstuck.

OOPS.

Well look at this piece of shittastic art.
Yeahh my trial period is up I KNOW BUT FUCK IT I CAN STILL ART.
So. All done with the mouse.
Suck it.
But no rlly I’m so upset today still it just…I just needed to draw sadstuck.


I feel like i’m being replaced, everything never stays the same, I’m not even sure what to call myself anymore, I’ve lost touch with all the friends I gained. They said it would get better. I want to know when.

Yeah, no it’s okay. I know im nothing special either. no, I know how you feel, it’s cool. I mean what kind of person would be my friend, right? Yeah…I’m nothing important, I know…

Only good for being used.

That’s all I’ll be good at.

I’m too nice, I’m always apologizing i know.

I’m sorry i’ll never really be good enough..


To those lonely nights where you’re sitting alone, your friends irl all refuse to talk with you because of something you didnt know you did and your online real friends are offline. So you sit in your own thoughts and wonder…What did I do that made me like this? What’s wrong with me??

Oh my god. ITS DONE. Done on SAI with the mouse. Jesus christ guys so far from kidding this was just… I have no idea. it’s ME if you couldnt tell haha. I still hate my work.

Oh my god.

ITS DONE.

Done on SAI with the mouse.

Jesus christ guys so far from kidding this was just… I have no idea. it’s ME if you couldnt tell haha. I still hate my work.